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I feel like hiding in a hole. I'm not exactly sure why because technically, I should be all bouncy and happy because hey, I'm the new HMC Student Council President and after all I had to go through during the campaign, I'm really happy about it. I don't know, I am glad, don't get me wrong, but I just feel so … alone.

It's true, I'm lucky, I have great, really supportive friends, but somehow it feels like something is missing. A void that nothing can fill. Maybe you filled it lately but it seemed to be only temporary because I'm back to being on my own, I'm back to staying here hiding from the world.

I've received so many text messages and calls from people saying "Congratulations, you must be so happy!" and to which I reply saying "Oh yeah, I am, thank you!" but really, I'm not. I won, yeah, but I feel like I won at the expense of other things, other things that meant a lot more to me.

Actually, I'm just confused and I think I'm confusing whoever's reading this so I'm just gonna go for yoga class now and mope some more at home.  

I'm back! I don't know what my sudden burst of motivation was but yeah, I've been capricious (my new word, I found it when I was browsing Dictionary.com's previous WOTDs) lately about going back to blogging publicly but I finally decided to take the plunge. This isn't going to be my journal, and it's definitely not going to be a daily account of my life. It's here for me to meh, I don't know, pretend to me all bloggish and philosophical and stuff.

I (quite honestly) suck at writing introduction posts because I can never think of what to say so I'll just go on to the next big-ish event that's happening. Tomorrow. 2pm. HMC staff room. HMC Student Council election results. The votes will be counted right in front of us and the results will be announced on the spot. 2+ weeks of campaigning has finally come to an end, thank God. I'm not scared of losing but I'm just nervous and anxious in general, I can't help it. I'm dying to know who won for every single post! PS: I am (or was?) running for President.

Seeeeeeriously.

A huge ass thank you goes to everyone who helped me with my campaign. I'm truly touched by how many of you had faith in me and supported me throughout the entire journey. Thank you so much for everything you guys have done, and for all the times you made me smile Honestly, I couldn't have done it without you guys. I love you people <3

So I guess this concludes my first post here at Vainglory (don't ask about the name, I found it while browsing Dictionary.com as well and I really liked it, I'm not too sure why) and er yeah, it's nice to be back